Cliché Not

I’m sure you’ve heard the saying, “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.” I happen to only take lemon with my tea and I certainly am not a fan of lemonade, so I don’t abide by such cliché advice. Although, it seems like a viable solution to problems, it just isn’t always easy. Summer is over & my babies are back home. It’s not always a smooth transition to get back into routine so I often find that I’m overwhelmed during the whole month of September. My son started middle school and since he is now attending a charter school, his scheduling is different than my daughters… which puts everything out of sorts.

I have it all figured out. It’s really just a matter of executing the routine and getting accustomed to it. My son will now have to walk from his school to his after school program alone, which was stressful at first but he has a cellular phone now so the rules are that he calls me the moment he gets out, when he gets to his program and if he runs into any problems. So far, he’s done exceptionally well, which came as a surprise to me because I was worried he may have been a little immature with things like that but he’s given me quite a shock. I’m sure once he gets into the groove of things, he will start making stops and things of that nature. I’m not fond of that but I don’t really have a choice but to trust that he makes the right decisions. After all, we’ve discussed it.

I don’t want to be one of those mothers who smother, but I also don’t want him to think that he can do whatever he wants either. Regardless, I never realized how much more worry comes with your children getting older and having to do things on their own. I have always been sort of a worrier, which really isn’t good because I find that I stress myself out with it. At any rate, the show must go on and I just have to suck it up and allow my son to grow. I’m already getting on his nerves and I can tell he gets a bit irritated with my worrying. His father doesn’t seem to be as worried. Maybe it’s a male thing.

I’m Back

I’m back with another domain. On a whim I decided that I wanted a new one. I’ve just been going through so many changes that a new domain seemed fitting. Not to mention I got tired of the domain name, honestly. I have been making attempts to get things together to finally be able to go back to school. I’ve also been making attempts to be better organized and incorporate more things into my day to keep myself stress free. That will include doing workouts every night after the kids go to bed. My sleeping habits have always been terrible. I just simply chalked it up to a bad case of insomnia but I figure if I have a full and productive day, with everything laid out and a nice workout before bed, things might change.

This thing with school is so important to me because it will help me get where I need to be. I want to move out of this city so bad and the thought of my children going to these neighborhood schools frightens me. My son, especially, is not mentally built for the type of environment he’d have to be in. He will be starting middle school this year and the school he’s going to really isn’t top notch. Everyone thinks he will be just fine, except me. I never knew how scary it would be having a child make such a transition and I never thought I’d worry like this either. My daughter pretty much adjusts anywhere she goes without any issues but she’s much like me.

As ridiculous as this sounds, I was thinking for a while how I felt like I was too old to be blogging but everyone needs an outlet or a place they can go that is their own sanctuary of sorts. I’ve been thinking about a lot of ridiculous shit lately since I’ve turned 31. I’m too young to be having a midlife crisis but I have no idea what this is that I’m feeling. At any rate, I’m sure it will pass.

I look forward to blogging more often. I’ve always said that I will and then I have these times where I open wordpress and my mind goes blank… even despite the fact that there is always so much on it.