Blogging Intentions

I’ve been blogging since 2005. I remember browsing an old social media site called CrushSpot and coming across people who were designing their own websites and blogging. It was intriguing to me and so I downloaded PaintShop Pro and began designing. It was basically random shit because I was trying to learn the basics of graphic design. I spent many nights teaching myself HTML/CSS and WordPress. Unfamiliar with web hosting and domains, I simply started out on free sites. Sheesh, it’s been so long that I don’t even remember any of them that I used. I blogged every other day, maybe, about meaningless shit. I’d always had a passion to express myself but whenever I’d blog, I’d never have anything meaningful to say. All I wanted to do was have a blog site. I bought my first domain in 2006 and never looked back. Everything changed for me when I realized I had free reign over my entire site. No ads or other limitations anymore. 

Now I barely blog these days. I’m not even really interested in blog design anymore. Truth be told, I visit my own site often and change little things here and there just so I don’t get rusty because I hope that one day I will be able to spruce my blog up and really get down to business. I think about silly shit though. Like damn, I’m 32 years old and blogging. Is that even appropriate? But I’m sure there are people older than me who blog all of the time. It’s funny because when I first started blogging there wasn’t really anything exciting going on in my life, yet I could blog about just about anything all of the time. Now that I’m older with more going on, I find that I don’t really feel the need to blog. 

I always have intentions on blogging. But then I get lazy or caught up in other things so it becomes less of a priority. It’s no priority really. I refuse to pressure myself to complete the task but I do try to remember this is my little place on the web where I can go when I want to express myself or even vent. Whatever the case may be, my number one goal is to stop coming here and talking about how I’m NOT blogging and actually do it. After all, my major is writing.

An Update

I have been the worst blogger. Things aren’t the same for me as they use to be years ago. Life has actually gotten exponentially better for me in the last couple of years. I’m no longer dealing with my very needy and destructive family. I’m back in school. I’ve made so many life changes from quitting coffee and doing yoga, to really focusing on making an attempt at living a stress-free life. Of course, things come along that seem to dampen things sometimes but it’s much easier for me to bounce back these days. School is school. Most of the time when I’m not working or tending to the kids, I’m tending to school work. There are some days when I’m utterly frustrated with schoolwork because my classes are online and things are done a little bit differently. For example, quite a few of my online courses will require me to keep submitting drafts for papers with requirements and what not. I mean, I get why it’s done this way but I’m not use to writing that way. I admit that I’m a last minute type of chick and I hate feeling pressured. I submitted a draft for a humanities course and my instructor docked me points because my paper was only 2 1/2 pages (the final paper was to be 3-5 pages) and I’m just like damn I thought this was a rough draft though? She was so concerned about the length of my draft that she didn’t even provide feedback for the pages I already had. It was frustrating. I truly hated that course though. It was basically a course about the history of art. I truly appreciate art, don’t get me wrong, but there are just certain pieces of art that I could do without. Like all of those statues of naked men from Greek and Roman eras. I understand their meaning, but I mean, seriously?

Other than school, everything is pretty much the same. I have had some really interesting projects that I’m currently working on to bring in more income that I feel could be successful. I’m trying to be one of those people who don’t need to rely on simply leaving the house to go to some 9-5 to make a living. Working from home has always been a dream and I plan on making that dream come true. I’m just so tired of the monotony of my everyday life and I feel like I need more freedom in my days. I’m sure anyone could relate. With the advancement of technology, working from home could really be a thing of the future. Anyway, when I finally bring these things to fruition, I will definitely be sharing them here.